Friday, April 29, 2011

summer reading program

These are all the books I want to read this summer. Two years into a BA, my best education continues to happen on my own time.

Freedom Evolves - Daniel Dennet
The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
Godel, Escher, Bach - Douglas Hofstadter
Godel's Proof - Newman and Nagel
To the Lighthouse - Virginia Woolf
Dr. Zhivago - Boris Pasternak
Le Ton beau de Marot - Douglas Hofstadter
The Bit and the Pendulum - Tom Siegfried
Atonement - Ian MacEwan
The Metamorphosis - Franz Kafka
Little Dorrit - Charles Dickens
A Brief History of Time - Stephen Hawking
The Diary of Anne Frank
Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
I Am A Strange Loop - Douglas Hofstadter
The Selfish Gene - Richard Dawkins

days of colour - sprouts and butter

green and yellow things in abundance:
boots and chives (which should be the names of two characters - small boys)
watering can
longer hair
my desk, reclaimed from homework

Saturday, April 23, 2011

oh dear

Day 4 of six straight days of work, and no time for Easter. This is not how I would like my summer to continue . . .

I shall be back.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

a recap

... remember these?

- practice writing whenever and wherever I can (some of these goals are too vague. however, I think I can tentatively check this one.)
- run often, so that I can begin to call myself a runner (as above.)
- lose 9 pounds (nope. it's ok though.)
- find a pleasant job (check!)
- go for a tattoo consultation (not yet. I have yet to decide what I want.)
- brush my teeth more regularly (since I can't have braces yet) (check?)
- continue to grow out my hair (check!)
- take more photographs (...)
- publish Tom-Tom #8 (not yet. it will come. it will come.)
- drink "copious amounts of tea" (check.)
- achieve a 4.0 in my fourth semester (nope. I wrote poems instead.)
- register for a 5k (check!)
- employ a knitting pattern (check!)
- fill two notebooks (one.)
- read 15 non-school books (six.)
- listen to Beethoven's symphonies (now on No. 7.)
- have friends over more often (check!)
- court new friends (check!)
- write with integrity--even for school (check.)
- submit new poems to new magazines (not yet. I have a list though.)
- spend time alone (check.)
- get to know Tim better (check.)
- reduce debt to 500 dollars (how about 0 dollars?)
- become more mindful about shopping (check...)
- start over in the morning (check...)
- take care of my skin (check.)
- dress up more (check.)
- take my vitamins (check!)
- work to become physically stronger (check!)

Monday, April 11, 2011

rest assured

There will be more colour pictures (including days of 'grapefruit' and 'sprout') and photos in general as soon as our new batteries arrive...

Sunday, April 10, 2011


What happens when you wake up at 5am on the morning of your first race and realize that not a single bus runs past the park you are supposed to run through?

You check out the local taxi situation, learn that a 20-minute trip will cost you 30 dollars. And then you put on your race shirt and your mascara, and instead run 5.4 km along a well-known and well-loved route. The sun rises, the mist burns off the river valley, Whoopi Goldberg sings in your ear. Your legs are fine. You hold your head up. And you burst in the door 40 minutes and 30 seconds later, just as your husband is waking up.

Counting this as a win.

Saturday, April 9, 2011

an update

My holiday from the scale continues. I'm no longer scared about the number, I'd just rather concentrate on behaviors for now. What sorts of behaviors?

Not eating at night, gallivanting about on my bicycle, drinking water, planning meals, preventing running injuries, painting fingernails...

I've felt wonderful this week. My skin is glowing, my jeans fit better, my digestive system is happy to be waking up hungry, my metabolism is back, my stomach feels flatter, my legs feel stronger.

The one black spot has been some recurring shin splints. The race is tomorrow, and though I have a plan, and a playlist, and lots of carbs on the counter for breakfast, I am worried that my legs are going to fail me. My running has been on-again, off-again for the past two weeks, and I think that only with two ibuprofens and a lot of luck am I going to be able to run tomorrow. Up until I picked up my race package this afternoon (thinking I might as well claim my free t-shirt), I wasn't even planning to show up. My plans have changed. I have come a long way this year. Even though I won't be able to run the entire course without walking breaks, and even though I may have to walk the last section if my shins start to act up, I am determined to prove to myself what I can do.

I'll post a report tomorrow night. Wish me all the luck you can muster.

(Goals for the upcoming week? To run a couple of short distances, concentrating on my form. To bike every day to make the hills easy again. To climb 75 flights of stairs at least once. To use the dumbbells twice.)

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

when I am finished this paper I am going to

- clean the dirty pan in the oven
- paint my fingernails coral
- cut my bangs
- go for a run
- buy fabric and knitting needles (for a pillowcover and a sweater)
- write notes to my two favorite professors, because plans have changed for next fall, and I will be entering a venerable giant of a university
- make gnocchi with mushrooms
- make banana bread with chocolate chips
- go out for coffee to a new place, sit alone and write in my journal
- wash the sheets
- reply to letters
- post the first colour blog (blue), following Emily's charming example

But for now, to work.

Sunday, April 3, 2011

an update

Damn this week. I don't know if I lost two pounds, because I've been scared to weigh myself. However, I am very pleased to report that I ran three times, took four or five bicycle trips, and relished the sight of the bare roads and sidewalks, all newly cracked and heaving, but dry. I made granola, and chicken stock from scratch, packed food for work and school, used my hula hoop and dumb bells, and pounded out 20 minutes straight on my aunt's treadmill. Can I also say that Tim gets puffed keeping up with me?

Goals for this week:

- plan meals
- refrain from eating after 7pm
- run four times

. . . and this is what I looked like, two weeks ago in jeans. Progress?